greetings from sunny? CA
Hello from my in-law's house. I'm here for my sis-in-law's baby shower, and Kevin is at home enjoying a Saturday night with the high schoolers. Tonight's Project Freshman, and I'm sure he's a busy guy.
This week was surreal. On Tuesday I tied up loose ends at the office, then turned in my keys and said goodbye to my coworkers. I'll still see them around occasionally, so it wasn't totally final, but my heart was still heavy.
I had to make a mad dash to Garland to see Episode III with the rents. I hopped in the car and started making my way through the traffic. And I realized that I felt really weird. I wasn't having chest pains or anything, but I had an adrenaline rush or something because my heart felt really strange. Like you do when you're nearing the top of the first big hill on the roller coaster. My muscles were tense, my brain was racing - did I remember to do such-and-such, will so-and-so remember to do this, etc. When I was passing Loop 12 on I-30, I started to cry for just 10 seconds or so, and then the tears stopped as quickly as they started.
I didn't realize it'd affect me so much to leave my job. Maybe the emotional stress is also because of the added changes - a new church, new students, new responsibilities for both of us. We're not sure whether we should buy a house or not. I plan to start working part-time in the fall, but I'm not sure what exactly I'll do.
Being in California, in spite of the so-so weather we've had, has really helped me to separate myself from the stress and just enjoy things for a while. I was here a little more than a month ago and experienced the same peace, and at that time we weren't sure where Kevin would get a job. It's amazing how quickly things change.
In a few short months we'll have a new niece, we may or may not be in a house, Kevin will be settled in his job, and I'll be looking for something part-time to occupy my brain and provide us with some fun money.
But for now, in the present, I'll just focus on having fun with my family, eating fresh California strawberries, and enjoying the crazy flowers that are blooming everywhere.
Hello from my in-law's house. I'm here for my sis-in-law's baby shower, and Kevin is at home enjoying a Saturday night with the high schoolers. Tonight's Project Freshman, and I'm sure he's a busy guy.
This week was surreal. On Tuesday I tied up loose ends at the office, then turned in my keys and said goodbye to my coworkers. I'll still see them around occasionally, so it wasn't totally final, but my heart was still heavy.
I had to make a mad dash to Garland to see Episode III with the rents. I hopped in the car and started making my way through the traffic. And I realized that I felt really weird. I wasn't having chest pains or anything, but I had an adrenaline rush or something because my heart felt really strange. Like you do when you're nearing the top of the first big hill on the roller coaster. My muscles were tense, my brain was racing - did I remember to do such-and-such, will so-and-so remember to do this, etc. When I was passing Loop 12 on I-30, I started to cry for just 10 seconds or so, and then the tears stopped as quickly as they started.
I didn't realize it'd affect me so much to leave my job. Maybe the emotional stress is also because of the added changes - a new church, new students, new responsibilities for both of us. We're not sure whether we should buy a house or not. I plan to start working part-time in the fall, but I'm not sure what exactly I'll do.
Being in California, in spite of the so-so weather we've had, has really helped me to separate myself from the stress and just enjoy things for a while. I was here a little more than a month ago and experienced the same peace, and at that time we weren't sure where Kevin would get a job. It's amazing how quickly things change.
In a few short months we'll have a new niece, we may or may not be in a house, Kevin will be settled in his job, and I'll be looking for something part-time to occupy my brain and provide us with some fun money.
But for now, in the present, I'll just focus on having fun with my family, eating fresh California strawberries, and enjoying the crazy flowers that are blooming everywhere.
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